Noah is coming along. I'm about a quarter through... maybe a third. I try to do 20-25 pages per Noah chapter. Emerson and Lincoln series were shorter, max 18 pages usually. Kasper is always the longest. He needs 25-30 pages, but there's a lot of dialogue so that's kind of cheating. It stretches it out. It's weird how each series has its own flow like that. If I tried to write a 25 page Emerson chapter it just wouldn't work. But come to think of it, Emerson signs since he's deaf so there's a lot less short dialogue, it's more packed in. Interesting! I never thought about that until right now. I always just wondered why Emerson wrapped up so much shorter. I think Lincoln is shorter because I try to make him as straight dude as possible and that's out of my realm. I'm a quiet, shy, femme boy and I'm ok with that. My man is too... or I guess fiancee I can say now. What a journey. Two years ago I never would have thought it would go this long and we'd be heading to something legal and stuff. Wow. Oh ok so this is funny! I've had three readers email me recently about the Zakar twins (gay twin models) saying my stories inspired them to look up guys and they recommended I check them out. Apparently my stories inspired them. I love when someone writes and says they never though about those guys. I know we shouldn't fetishize a culture... But maybe I'm spreading some goodwill? ☺ I know in France and Europe there is a huge fetish community around Arab and Middle Eastern guys. Maybe it's spreading here now? They are pretty cute.
Kasper-8 is posted on nifty. Yay. I already got a few comments. I live for comments. I know I shouldn't. Good writing is its own reward... right. But I don't have people in my life who know about the writing so I sometimes need my readers. Working on Noah Ch. 21. Can you believe it?? 21 chapters. That is crazy! There has been a lot going on with telling "Navid's" family. It's been confusing but so far ok as you'll read in the chapter when I finish. Well this happened this morning :( The supreme court upheld the travel ban which includes Iran. That means our summer plan is off. I got my passport so we could go somewhere and meet up with his family in Europe. I'm a US-American, but "Navid" is an Iranian citizen so... Travel Ban
Fuck fuck! Seriously. "Navid" is out working so I don't know if he knows yet. I know he is worried, but he doesn't like to bring up stuff that will upset me. This is so fucked. Seriously. Don't even know how I feel. I tune out from most news. I shouldn't. It just never interested me, but now it's in my relationship.
I finally finished Kasper ch. 8. It took forever because I'm also working on chpt. 21 of Noah and then life just got really busy. I like this new chapter of Kasper, but it might not be that well received because it lays a lot of groundwork for future storylines. That's sometimes unpopular. People always like the chapters where the big drama happens, but I also need the chapters to guide them there. Noah 21 is going to be a really crazy chapter. So much is going on with the family and "Navid." It turns out ok though. It always does, right? :) Anyways. I don't think anyone reads this blog so I am likely to stop updating it soon. But it is kind of helpful to explain what's going on behind the scenes. It's hot this week!
After a week of not even reviewing it, Literotica is finally going to post Ch. 20 of Noah's Starship! yay! Next up is Kasper Ch. 7. I have had it halfway finished for over a week now but got stuck on a transition. Now it is coming to me and I feel like I can finish it this week. If you did read Ch. 20 of Noah's Starship, you saw about how Navid is preparing to tell his family. In real life, he still hasn't. It's so hard for him and I told him I don't want him doing it just for me. I couldn't live with myself if his parents cut him off or disowned him. I just don't want that happening. But he insists that he is going to do it. He says he knows for sure he wants something permanent with me and having that marriage paper is something he keeps pushing for. The funny thing is that I talk to his dad almost everyday. We videochat on the computer. He helped me with homework this semester and even reviewed some of my research papers. He likes to hear about my day and he tells me about his garden or his research or tries to explain soccer to me. I know he really wants a solid relationship with his kids, but they are growing up and don't spend as much time talking to him like he wants. It's odd because "Navid" is so worried about his father's approval. He works so hard to build the business, get the house, the fancy car. His dad really just wants to know his son. Would it be the end of the world to let him know who he really is? I know we won't have a huge expensive wedding. I don't want that... Well I do, but I don't want him spending crazy money on it. I just want us to be together with my dad there and some friends. There's a spot on the beach he took me to a long time ago near Santa Barbara that was so beautiful and perfect. A friend of his boss owns the place. I think I made a chapter of it in Noah's Starship. I would love to do it there, at a private beach house. How cool would that be? The Manchester concert was SO GOOD!!
The 20th chapter of Noah's Starship is posted, but only on nifty. Literotica is very slow these days so I don't know when they will approve it. I've officially been a houseboy for two weeks now (not taking summer classes). It's going ok, I make more elaborate dinners for him when he gets home. Luckily we live in a pretty walkable area with a grocery store nearby and a gym in our complex so I have everything I need. He hasn't told me yet where we're supposed to go this summer, but his dad says he is excited to see us. Up next is a chapter of Kasper's Den. I think I'm on chapter 7. I'm about halfway through it. It's really good! I keep going back to edit it and then adding on. I'll definitely finish it sometime this week. Being home most of the day I have time to write.
I am finishing up chapter six of Kasper's Den. It should post in a few days. This story is just writing itself... maybe because school is out and I'm home during the day with free time to just think. It feels so raw, but I like it a lot. This chapter coming out soon was the first one that I actually cried when I read over it for editing. I never really cry like that, even when writing Noah which is my own story about me and my guy. There's just something about Kasper I really identify with. I don't know why. I just know too many guys who went through things like Kasper did. I guess I did too with rejection. Maybe we all do. My dad is super supportive and of course my Persian guy is endlessly caring, but wow I found some emotions I didn't know I had with this one. One scene in it has Amir holding Kasper and it just totally encapsulated how I feel in my boyfriend's arms. Like nothing else matters and no one can ever hurt me. There's a really long sex scene too for those of you who requested it.
Halfway through a heatwave in LA. We were supposed to have an afternoon BBQ with his friends, but with the heat we decided to push it to dinner. The Persian, I call him "Navid" on here, is downstairs watching some soccer match with his friends before they fire up the grill. That leaves me some time to write. He doesn't expect me to sit there while they watch sports. I'm working on ch. 6 of Kasper's Den and also ch. 20 of Noah's Starship. I go back and forth between the two, eventually one will win and be finished first. I feel like Noah ch. 20 should be something crazy awesome. I don't really have anything crazy awesome though. We do have exciting times coming up though. I got my passport so this summer he's supposed to take me somewhere exciting as a surprise. I know he's said he misses London. Anywhere would be exciting though and hopefully his parents would meet up with us.
Next month will be two years since we met. TWO YEARS! How crazy is that? It feels like we've been together forever. "Navid" says it feels like just yesterday. I don't know if that's good or bad. He's become so much of who I am; our daily routine, our little home, our nightly falling asleep ritual. Ok back to writing. -e
Starting a new chapter of a story is always hard to do. I get this scene in my head, a REALLY great scene, and I want to make it into a chapter so I write it down in a very rough draft then I think back to what the characters were doing before and how do I get them from there to this scene. Then sometimes that really great scene just doesn't go with it at all and I have to cut it or reshape it. My "Navid," the Persian love of my life who inspires the Navid you've read about in Noah's Starship, is doing ok, thanks for asking. Funny thing happened. SO I'm home from school now because finals are over. OveR!!! Summer is here and with one day home I was already bored out of my mind. We have a small townhouse and I keep it pretty clean already. It takes maybe an hour to completely get it sparkling perfect. By 9 this morning I was bored. I went to the gym in our complex to workout and then kept texting "Navid," but he is working so he just responds here and there between his meetings or driving. He got home about 3 and brought me this:
It's a finger spinner. He was mentioning to one of his clients that his "boy" (I think he probably refers to me as his son when working with people who he doesn't know well and are just working with him on a business deal) is home from school and bored. The client gave him the spinner to give to me and said his kids are crazy about them. It's the latest craze for kids... Not a 20 year old. We looked at some youtube videos on how it works while I was making our dinner. He did some tricks with it. I think he likes it more than I do. It's so funny too because he comes home in his suit and tie with gelled back hair checking emails and making calls like a real man. Then he goes upstairs and puts on his gym clothes and baseball cap and plays with the spinner doing tricks to entertain me and make me laugh while I'm making our dinner. It just reminded me of the side of him that is still a kid, the easygoing playful guy I fell in love with. Not that I'm not totally in love with the man who makes money and provides a beautiful life for me, but he's more complex than that. Now he's back to being the adult and working on his business things for tomorrow. He sets a time limit of about an hour or two each night to work, the rest is for us. It's a compromise we made back when he was working like crazy every day and night.
Someone told me I should start this blog. I've never done one before or really read them. It sounded like a good idea. Does anyone read these though? Is this something I should do?
First Blog post Chapter 5 of Kasper's Den is now up on Nifty Literotica takes a few days to post I'm already working on chapter 6, but people want a chapter of Noah's Starship. It's been awhile since I've updated it and so much has happened... so many interesting things to put in it. Maybe I'll smash them together. Finals are finished so I finally have some time to write. This semester sucked. I am so glad it's over. I hope I did ok.
