Kasper Six

I am finishing up chapter six of Kasper's Den. It should post in a few days. This story is just writing itself... maybe because school is out and I'm home during the day with free time to just think. It feels so raw, but I like it a lot. 

This chapter coming out soon was the first one that I actually cried when I read over it for editing. I never really cry like that, even when writing Noah which is my own story about me and my guy. There's just something about Kasper I really identify with.

I don't know why. I just know too many guys who went through things like Kasper did. I guess I did too with rejection. Maybe we all do. My dad is super supportive and of course my Persian guy is endlessly caring, but wow I found some emotions I didn't know I had with this one. 

One scene in it has Amir holding Kasper and it just totally encapsulated how I feel in my boyfriend's arms. Like nothing else matters and no one can ever hurt me. There's a really long sex scene too for those of you who requested it. 

Too hot to BBQ

Halfway through a heatwave in LA. We were supposed to have an afternoon BBQ with his friends, but with the heat we decided to push it to dinner. The Persian, I call him "Navid" on here, is downstairs watching some soccer match with his friends before they fire up the grill. That leaves me some time to write. He doesn't expect me to sit there while they watch sports. 

I'm working on ch. 6 of Kasper's Den and also ch. 20 of Noah's Starship. I go back and forth between the two, eventually one will win and be finished first. I feel like Noah ch. 20 should be something crazy awesome. I don't really have anything crazy awesome though. We do have exciting times coming up though. I got my passport so this summer he's supposed to take me somewhere exciting as a surprise. I know he's said he misses London. Anywhere would be exciting though and hopefully his parents would meet up with us. 

Next month will be two years since we met. TWO YEARS! How crazy is that? It feels like we've been together forever. "Navid" says it feels like just yesterday. I don't know if that's good or bad. He's become so much of who I am; our daily routine, our little home, our nightly falling asleep ritual. 

Ok back to writing. 
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Starting thoughts

Starting a new chapter of a story is always hard to do. I get this scene in my head, a REALLY great scene, and I want to make it into a chapter so I write it down in a very rough draft then I think back to what the characters were doing before and how do I get them from there to this scene. Then sometimes that really great scene just doesn't go with it at all and I have to cut it or reshape it.

My "Navid," the Persian love of my life who inspires the Navid you've read about in Noah's Starship, is doing ok, thanks for asking. 

Funny thing happened. SO I'm home from school now because finals are over. OveR!!! Summer is here and with one day home I was already bored out of my mind. We have a small townhouse and I keep it pretty clean already. It takes maybe an hour to completely get it sparkling perfect. By 9 this morning I was bored. I went to the gym in our complex to workout and then kept texting "Navid," but he is working so he just responds here and there between his meetings or driving. 

He got home about 3 and brought me this: 

It's a finger spinner. He was mentioning to one of his clients that his "boy" (I think he probably refers to me as his son when working with people who he doesn't know well and are just working with him on a business deal) is home from school and bored. The client gave him the spinner to give to me and said his kids are crazy about them. It's the latest craze for kids... Not a 20 year old. 

We looked at some youtube videos on how it works while I was making our dinner. He did some tricks with it.  I think he likes it more than I do. It's so funny too because he comes home in his suit and tie with gelled back hair checking emails and making calls like a real man. Then he goes upstairs and puts on his gym clothes and baseball cap and plays with the spinner doing tricks to entertain me and make me laugh while I'm making our dinner. 

It just reminded me of the side of him that is still a kid, the easygoing playful guy I fell in love with. Not that I'm not totally in love with the man who makes money and provides a beautiful life for me, but he's more complex than that. 

Now he's back to being the adult and working on his business things for tomorrow. He sets a time limit of about an hour or two each night to work, the rest is for us. It's a compromise we made back when he was working like crazy every day and night. 

Someone told me I should start this blog. I've never done one before or really read them. It sounded like a good idea. Does anyone read these though? Is this something I should do? 

Kasper 5 is posted

First Blog post

Chapter 5 of Kasper's Den is now up on Nifty 
Literotica takes a few days to post

I'm already working on chapter 6, but people want a chapter of Noah's Starship. It's been awhile since I've updated it and so much has happened... so many interesting things to put in it. Maybe I'll smash them together. 

Finals are finished so I finally have some time to write. This semester sucked. I am so glad it's over. I hope I did ok.