This semester has been crazy work. I have one more week! This week got so busy that A (the fiancee) had to pick up take-out for dinner. He got used to me making special meals for him and he gets kind of pouty when he has to eat restaurant food. I feel bad, but it's just been so busy... He wants me to slow down and I kind of do to. I know it's not something I'm supposed to want, but I really do like being his home guy. I like keeping things nice here and him not having to worry about anything around the house. He works so hard to take care of us and make sure I never worry about money. He likes coming home to me making some weird new recipe and everything clean and music playing and my yoga mat by the window. He likes being able to come in and drop his clothes and give me a kiss before he sits down to answer emails. He likes me being not stressed and worried about things. I like that too, but we both committed to me finishing my degree. He takes his promise to my father that he would put me through school very seriously. I have three semesters left. Isn't that crazy? So Chapter 10 of Kasper's Den is coming along. I'm on page 21. I think I just need to make the sex scene really good and then I'll post it. The smoke over LA has been crazy. My sinuses are nuts and they cancelled classes but it doesn't really matter since everyone is just working on projects and studying for finals. It's not like we need to be on campus anyways.One more week of the semester!!!! :)
We went to dinner over the hill tonight. That's what you say when you live in the valley and do anything in LA (even though the valley is part of the city of LA. When you cross the hollywood hills, it's a whole other world). A (the fiancee) had to meet some clients late so he took me with him and we all had dinner at this place in West Hollywood (the gayborhood). We were driving home and the freeways were so bad that he took back roads up to Mulholland.
If you've never driven it, it's amazing. Mulholland winds between the peaks of the Hollywood Hills so you either get a dazzling view of the basin or the valley. It just goes back and forth from amazing to brilliant. It's drizzly tonight so of course LA traffic comes to a complete crawl.
A. gets lost in his thoughts when he's driving from a meeting and the traffic was frustrating so he kept one hand in my lap and the other on the wheel. He says it calms him when I'm with him. He doesn't care what music I play so I get to put on stuff from my phone. I decided to try the new 1975 song. I LOVE that group. Since Years and Years hasn't come out with anything new in FOREVER, The 1975 is my go to now. This new to airplay song is amazing but so so sad:
I love this song, but it's so sad and it got me thinking. A. is super sensitive to my moods and it snapped him out of his thoughts.
"This is sad song. It makes my love sad," he decided. It was the first thing he'd said since complaining about the traffic on Sunset.
That got me talking. I told him, "I don't know what I'd do if I ever had to see you with somebody else."
We were stuck in a back-up and he looked over at me in the red tail lights of the car in front of us.
"Baby, there is no somebody else... never will be." He says the sweetest things even when I'm just inventing my own sadness. Then he leaned over and kissed me until we got honked at for not moving forward. He cursed at them in Persian and drove us home. It was one of those Noah moments I just had to write about.
The actual video to this song is super trippy! He starts seeing himself in the girl and at one point he's having sex with a stripper in his car and then it turns out that it's him in a wig and then no he's just jerking off alone in his car. So sad....
"So I heard you found somebody else
And at first I thought it was a lie I took all my things that make sounds The rest I can do without
I don't want your body But I hate to think about you with somebody else Our love has gone cold You're intertwining your soul with somebody else"
Is anyone else obsessed with the world series right now? No? Anyone? I grew up with a dad who is the ultimate baseball fan. He would take me to Dodgers or Angels games when he could. It was something fun we could do together. We'd share nachos and I'd pretend to be into it, but really just happy to be at his side with something that brought him so much excitement.
He tried to get me to play. He'd drag me to batting cages and even got me into little league for a few games. I sucked at it. He'd get upset and I'd cry. Then he'd feel like a big jerk and take me to mini golf which I always had a weird fascination for. He tried for years, but eventually gave up. We still watched the games together and went when we could afford it. Our sports outings focused on mini golf, and he learned to like that. It's the one thing I can beat him at even though I hate to win. I always feel bad when I win something I have to compete for. I don't like the thought of someone I love losing.
It's been fun having him over to our place to watch the games. I sit between him and A ("Navid" in the Noah series) and listen to them make bro-talk back and forth about the game. I make healthy versions of the stuff we get at the games. They both pretend to like my Pita Nachos. :) I'm actually into it too. These games have been crazy! It's been awesome to see them so close to something they've tried for longer than I've been alive. I'm just starting the next chapter of Kasper. I'm thinking up the trouble he can get into and how things are going to go down at the dinner cliffhanger I left in the last chapter. It's been awhile so I had to go back and re-read the old chapters so I don't miss anything or mess anything up. I love the Hamads. It's a total fantasy, but I've heard from lost of readers that it has some real elements of truth and these things do go on in the middle east, but under heavy cover. I don't know what it would look like in reality, but it's not reality. It's my fantasy and I'll invent a whole country if I want. 😘
I finally finished Chapter 22 of Noah's Starship. I can't believe it's been almost three months since I published a story. I submitted it so it should be up on nifty soon and then literotica later (they take forever to post). I got sick this week. I hate being sick and it happens so rarely. The fiancee ("Navid" in the stories) went to Rite Aid and bought me half the store. He freaks out when I'm sick. It's just sinus stuff and there's wildfires burning all over California. That mixes with the heat and smog to make for one unhappy me. Thanks everyone for being patient. It should post soon and then I can work on another chapter of Kasper. I have an idea for a new story, but I already have too many stories going on. heh. I'm seeing a TON of guys around LA with Jogger shorts and some look pretty hot. This guy below is wearing pulled up jogger pants, but they make them in shorts now. I'm going to get some. It's still warm here (95 today 😒).
Finally working on the next Noah's Starship. I'm 13 out of my usual 20 pages (try to get just over 10k words per chapter). It's starting to come together. I just feel super busy with too much going on and the weeks roll by without it. I always hate when I find a good series and then the author just drops off the planet, but now I kinda see why. Especially if it's good, you feel like Ugh what if I write a crap chapter and it effs it up? Or you feel like you've used all your good ideas and the fountains dry up for awhile, but then they come back. Life is good, just too much good going on and I get anxious about it when things spin too fast.
I've been getting emails asking why I disappeared. I didn't really disappear, but life got super busy. We are planning our wedding which at this point might just be us going with my dad to a courthouse somewhere or doing something small on the beach. Then there is AT's (the fiancee) business which has been super busy which is good, but I've been traveling with him here and there and helping him stay organized and checking his English on emails and letters. Plus we have been looking at neighborhoods and houses down south in cooler areas that AT says will be safer for when we have kids. Then the fall semester started so I'm in classes again! This one was actually kind of funny because normally AT takes me to my classes the week before since it's a pretty big campus with a lot of buildings. I have a bad sense of direction... We usually go and find where my classes will be so I don't have to rush around the first day. Only this time we ran out of time and I told him not to worry about it. So of course the first day I got lost and it was super crazy hot (it's been over 110 degrees for the last week!!!). I got overheated and actually felt kind of sick from it. I hadn't felt that before. It's like your stomach feels weird and things look blurry. I went to the upstairs of the bookstore building, got an iced bottle of water and sat on the cold tile floor leaning against the cold tile wall until I felt better. I couldn't tell AT about it because, much like Navid, he would worry and overreact. but I'm ok... Life got busy, but it will settle down soon. I have half a chapter of Noah's Starship. I will work on it again soon. But for now...
I saw this hot guy at the grocery store today with a little 2 yr old in his cart. He looked like he just came from the gym and they were talking about what to make for dinner. He sounded straight, I don’t know. It just got me daydreaming how nice that would be to be out and pushing a cart with a kid and shopping, talking about what to make for dinner when Baba (Persian word for dad) gets home from work. They were so cute. I know our plan is to wait until I finish school and I'm already stressed enough being a full time student and taking care of our home. I also know that AT (the fiancee) is very very ready to start a family with me. He gets very happy when I bring up having kids. I never understood it before we got together, but now I can see his excitement.
I can see us going around the park or at the grocery store with a baby strapped to my chest. I can see us finding couple friends who have similar aged kids. I know me finishing school first is non negotiable. AT promised my dad that I would finish and he would pay for it. He is very much a guy who keeps his word, and it's always good to have a college degree in case something happens to him or us and I have to support the family. But... But... But I want one. I'm also going to have to learn how to drive and we'll need a car, and a bigger house. Yesterday I went with AT for work. He had some meetings and some reports to prepare. We ended up way down in Orange County and he showed me a few houses and neighborhoods he likes. They were in very safe, quiet areas. He definitely wants to get us down there before we have kids.
Writing is going a little slower these days. We've had some pretty big events this summer and I want to get them right. I am all about Mura Masa these days. I changed out some of the songs in our sex playlist. I am so in love with this song and the video is bomb:
The gay couple in the video kind of reminds me of me and the fiancee, just the size difference between us. He is taller but not crazy tall and bulkier, muscular. But when he stands over me like that and I just feel surrounded by him. And that poor Japanese girl. I want to hug her. Lovesick is another good one. I expect big things from this guy. The rules for our sex playlist is that we can only remove songs we added and it has to be at least somewhat half and half of us. It's kind of funny when I add a new song and he like stops and nods his head and listens to see if he likes it. Most of my music is like get down to it beats. His style is more sweet tender love and a lot of Persian stuff. Sometimes it's a slow Persian song that is soulful and he'll stop and look down at me and sing in his deep, flat tone. He's not the best, but for me it's just so perfect. The thing about sex playlist is that there is only one situation in which we can play it. So it's no good in the car or for cleaning or other things. You have to save those songs. Ok back to writing Noah.
This cracks me up. So AT (the fiancee) is the king of our little development. Everyone comes to him with their issues and he gives advice or helps them solve it. He reviews all the bills and checks for our HOA and gets things fixed.
There's mostly older people where we live and a few young singles who are never around. AT, being the natural charmer and buff guy that he is, is the only one who knows everyone and helps them work together. There's an older lady who lives right across from us and she's retired. He brings her a pack of cigarettes sometimes and she adores him so she watches our house all day. Nothing much happens, but she will text him and when we get packages she'll grab them until he gets home.
The funny thing is that sometimes I run across people like when I'm going to gym or the mailbox and they'll want me to pass along something to him. They approach me with this respect that I'm not used to. It's like they really want AT to think highly of them. He doesn't do anything other than talk to people or smooth things over so it's not like he's some angry overlord. I just think it's funny. Like I'm some kind of powerful person.
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I'm working on Ch. 22 of Noah. I'm 1/4 of the way through. I think after this chapter I'm going to take a break from writing. We have a wedding to plan for and then classes are going to start for me. Plus he is really trying to push me to be ok with moving to the OC.
AT is saying it would be nice to start 2018 with a new and bigger place. Even worse is that now my dad is thinking he might move with us which negates my excuse for not wanting to go because my dad would be far away. They talked about it and AT says my dad could stay with us and save money until he could get his own place if he wants to. I would actually love to have my dad there.
So I'm kind of out of excuses... I have to face the truth that I just really hate change.
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Yesterday our internet went down. I texted him and he came home after work and tried to fix it. He looked so hot crawling around on the floor trying to rework things. He got home and had his suit on, but as he tried to fool with the internet stuff he kept removing his clothes once piece at a time. Finally he was just crawling on the floor in a pair of blue boxer briefs that had my full attention. He looks so hot when he's in fix-it mode. I am definitely going to get him a tool belt to wear around the house. He always acts surprised when I get turned on by him. Like he doesn't realize how hot he is. He's a good man.
