Somebody Else...

We went to dinner over the hill tonight. That's what you say when you live in the valley and do anything in LA (even though the valley is part of the city of LA. When you cross the hollywood hills, it's a whole other world). 

A (the fiancee) had to meet some clients late so he took me with him and we all had dinner at this place in West Hollywood (the gayborhood).  We were driving home and the freeways were so bad that he took back roads up to Mulholland. 

If you've never driven it, it's amazing. Mulholland winds between the peaks of the Hollywood Hills so you either get a dazzling view of the basin or the valley. It just goes back and forth from amazing to brilliant. It's drizzly tonight so of course LA traffic comes to a complete crawl. 

A. gets lost in his thoughts when he's driving from a meeting and the traffic was frustrating so he kept one hand in my lap and the other on the wheel. He says it calms him when I'm with him. He doesn't care what music I play so I get to put on stuff from my phone. I decided to try the new 1975 song. I LOVE that group. Since Years and Years hasn't come out with anything new in FOREVER, The 1975 is my go to now. This new to airplay song is amazing but so so sad: 

I love this song, but it's so sad and it got me thinking. A. is super sensitive to my moods and it snapped him out of his thoughts. 

"This is sad song. It makes my love sad," he decided. It was the first thing he'd said since complaining about the traffic on Sunset. 

That got me talking. I told him, "I don't know what I'd do if I ever had to see you with somebody else." 

We were stuck in a back-up and he looked over at me in the red tail lights of the car in front of us. 

"Baby, there is no somebody else... never will be." He says the sweetest things even when I'm just inventing my own sadness. Then he leaned over and kissed me until we got honked at for not moving forward. He cursed at them in Persian and drove us home. It was one of those Noah moments I just had to write about. 

The actual video to this song is super trippy! He starts seeing himself in the girl and at one point he's having sex with a stripper in his car and then it turns out that it's him in a wig and then no he's just jerking off alone in his car. So sad.... 

"So I heard you found somebody else

And at first I thought it was a lie
I took all my things that make sounds
The rest I can do without

I don't want your body
But I hate to think about you with somebody else
Our love has gone cold
You're intertwining your soul with somebody else"