The other night I dreamed that I was a 3 year old child of me and my husband and sitting in a car seat in the back of a giant SUV. I was eating cheerios and we were on a road trip to somewhere and I watched my parents (my husband and me) all happy in the front seat. Persian dad (my husband) kept looking back at me every few seconds. Pretty weird. There were other, older boys in the car too. I guess they were my brothers.
Then today I came across a song on youtube I hadn't heard in forever. My dad used to make CDs of different songs for my mom. They did have some happy times. I remember being in the back of a car in my car seat and seeing them happy before she left. This was one of the songs he used to play and they'd sing along (terribly) together... My dad worked so hard to keep her happy.
Anyways! So my mother-in-law and brother-in-law are coming Wednesday. Thursday I get to go off with them without my husband. It's kind of weird to think that I haven't gone outside of this apartment building without him as my escort since I was in on-campus classes. That was 8 months ago! I don't drive and he doesn't let me wander on my own and there isn't anywhere I need to go for school.
We are going to take a Lyft to Beverly Hills so she can do some shopping and then The Grove so his brother doesn't get too bored... I want us to have lunch on that strip in Los Feliz (Lowss FEE-liss) along Hillhurst. It's so pretty and there are good restaurants. my husband says she likes Turkish food and there is a little place there that looks good. Plus it's a fun street to walk and people watch.
**[Lukas Update]**
Ok I am finally feeling like getting back to Chapter 20 of Lukas. I realized I was missing out on the personal connection between Mr. Khorasani and his "target." I needed to go back and build it some more. I'm feeling it now. He approaches things differently than Ari would. He isn't the moonstruck love like Ari and he isn't the predator-trainer like his brother.
Mr. K is first and foremost a daddy in the true sense that he wants to see a boy become a man... not a boy become a princess or a man become a puppy or... the way the other men in this series approach their targets.
Lastly... I love this song... played it on repeat too many times today. Beautiful video too. I love when A comes home and he's talking on the phone with his earbuds in his ears and he just comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me and puts his nose into my neck. It's the best feeling in the world. He is usually on the phone when he comes home :)
Thats a weird dream :-) I wonder if it says something about A. treating you as a child. Or maybe you are really ready to have children.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I hope this is not too personal, but do you still have contact with your mom or even know where she is (feel free to ignore this question if you don't want to answer..)
I'm not sure what exactly it says :)
DeleteMy mom is around, but not in California. My dad will use me as an excuse to get to talk to her. Like he'll text her and say "Em is getting all A's" or whatever and then she will call him to talk to me. She doesn't have my cell #. She has my dad's and my husband's. I suspect my husband sends her money. He just can't understand how a person has no relationship with his mother. I don't want anything from her, but my dad is an amazing man who did everything for me so I let him use me as an excuse. It makes him happy to hear from her and know she is ok. She goes between Arizona and Georgia where she and my dad are both from.
The second video, sweet sweet SAD. And the first one, I had a visceral reaction to Mr. Big, couldn’t stand that song when it was out. But, your dad, crazy romantic. He’s going to make some woman very happy.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your family outing! It should be interesting not having your husband there if he’s the translator. Unless your BIL is fluent.
My dad picks the worst women. :) He is the sweetest guy, but he picks women who aren't really that good to him. I hope he does find someone nice eventually! :) And yes, he loves songs like that and a lot of old rock stuff and 90's stuff.
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